This verse in 1 Thessalonians is my mantra for today. I think I've already repeated it to myself a dozen times this morning so far, and I've barely got the kids out the door for school today. But honestly, I'm having to repeat it over and over to myself because I'm having a really hard time following it today.
Today is Thanksgiving. Or at least, it's supposed to be. But here, it's just a normal school/work day. I've gotten fairly used to that over the years. But this is the first year (I think in our 10 years in PNG) that we are doing absolutely nothing to celebrate it. And I'm having a hard time with that.
It's not that I'm not thankful. I have SO much to be thankful for. But finding joy today when I just want to cry is more the issue. Maybe I can just chalk it up to hormones, but really, it's more than that.
Last year, we had probably the most "Thanksgiving-like" day that we've ever had here. You can see it
HERE. We did all the traditional Thanksgiving things... hang out for the entire day, eat way too much food, play games, chat, re-visit the leftovers in the evening. It was wonderful.
But this year, after hosting Thanksgiving get-togethers for the last couple of years, I just am tired. We've had tons going on and I just honestly am not up to hosting a big get-together. I guess a part of me is discouraged by feeling that unless we host and invite and plan, no one will invite us to something. And so, we aren't having Thanksgiving this year.
I'm planning to have a special dinner tonight, just for our family, between helping the kids with their homework and Matt rushing off to play Floorball after dinner. Not quite the same. And it won't be a fancy turkey dinner complete with all the fixings. (This year, it would actually be possible to procure a turkey -- it's not always possible--- but it would literally cost over $80 to buy one!!! So even though it's is
possible, it ain't gonna happen!) But it's hard to go through our non-holiday, knowing that back home, loved ones are getting together and laughing and talking and eating turkey and we are just having a 'just-like-any-other-day' here. It's easier to handle when we have plans to get together with friends and celebrate with them.
But, since that's not happening this year, I'll just try to keep busy, and go on a Facebook fast so I don't have to see everyone's Thanksgiving posts, and keep reminding myself of how much I have been blessed with and try my best to "be joyful always."